Red Rain was totally awesome! Two days of it.. and i have backache from all the jumping i did. On saturday i was right in the extereme front of the theatre, two metres away from the lead singer Michael Turner. And i jump like siao. XDD Boing boing.

The songs are cool and rocky and anointed. Lemme see-i love- Red Rain, Summer, Oasis, Majesty and Love! birrybangbang birrybangbang.. love the beatXD
On saturday, Kimberly, Sara and Chuanyu'Fish' came. hehe. And i got to know great people like Darren, Jocelyn, Teresa (not my sister) and Gladys! XD And yesterday i met Naomi, Yi Xin, Eng How and Daisy. Awesomeness!

Faith and Prisia were doing weird antics! XD lol running around and snarling and etc.. a free entertainment for us. Over the kfc table, with Fedora stuck in between. Watta laugh! lol.

Towards the end of the concert yesterday, the band invited whoever wants to come up onstage to dance and scream and shout. And of course i went, after unsuccessfully trying to pull Tereza and Guo Quan. lol. Boing boing boing, up and down, up and down i go. Whee! Was jumping around like siao with Winnie and Pam and Jonathan amongst a mass of people. But i realised that it is scary to sing onstage, especially as i could not see the faces in the audience. But for now i am content with jumping! XD

I was high!

Blue skies and long hot summer days,
white sands and surfing in the bays!

I can see Red, raining down on me,
as far as the eye can see.
I see Red raining down!

Oasis in the desert, walk on the narrow road!

Red Rain was the beste!

Today is teh last day of school before the holidays. Just in case anyone is wondering. And that mesns its quite slack.. just for today. The weekend is gonna be really busy with all the awesome RED RAIN concerts!! woohoo. ^^ I love rock concerts la!

Days seem to pass by so fast.. it is just unearthy. it seems like yesterday since i first came to Cedar and was sitting in the hall with my mum, wondering if choosing a girls school was the right choice; and deciding that i would have to pull through the four years even if i did not like it. The confusion of the first few weeks and getting to know my classmates. The first person i came into contact with in Cedar was incidentally Suria, who came to the wrong class. And once i got to know her, she left. Well. Then i got to know Gurinderjit and Becky and Ting Wei and Liyana and Shakura.

Track/ cross country was the worst thing on earth and i hated the trainings, but one could see that my stamina was getting better with all the running at macritchie. Lemme rmb.. All the nice xctr people were Lilin, Jean, Debra, Shakura and Pei Ting and Yong En. I could not be bothered to get to know people like Sam and Natasha and Valerie. As one by one the original xctr people left for other ccas, i was left alone with Shakura; and in the end she went to vjc. So i quit too.. :)

French was totally fun fun fun, monsieur Dremaux was totally funny and nice and even bought us all a cake on the first lesson. He called us all by French names..(Simone). The funny thing is i only rmb people's french names and not their real names! Henrietta etait mon meilleure amie dans la classe et nous ont partage des moments formidables. Mes autres amies de classe etait et sont encore Christie et Erika. :) I ove a lot to him and mr quenot in sec 2, as they were the ones who ignited a passion for french. Maybe as they were french.. i find the singapore teachers very uninspiring. Then Henrietta left for the US and i did not have time to send her off, and now i have lost contact. Oh well, if u ever see this Henrietta, i
wanna say that u are a cool and funkey gal and thanks for everything!!

I have had so many moments of joy and heartbreak and sorrow in Cedar. Unbelievable that i will be ending the Cedar story soon, at the end of the year. And all my classmates and treasured friends will disperse and start attending jcs and polys. Thus i conclude that i have to make the best of the time we still have togather, as people come and go.

Then there were all the prefect functions,and seminars and Food Amazing Race in sec 2 with Regina, Sneha and Shakura. Mann we had fun!! Running around Chinatown and looking for clues.

And all the OAC and especially LTC'04 which was the best! I still have unforgettable memories of it.. even though the seniors were scary. I was Falcon group.. with Seal, Marion, Shireen, Arini, Bei Shan, Elaine, Wan Xin and some more great people. Haha Seal, so this was the first time i got to know uu. :) Memories, memories ehh. LOL.

Wow this entry is really lengthy.. i will try to post some photos next time. Am in school now. The three and a half years passed in a flash, much much faster than my primanry school years. Well, i am going to finish the race and score a good L1R5 of 10. Me is the mugger.

My mission- to do well in O's.
Action plan- mug like siao. My mum will make me anyway, since mrs Loy called about my inadequate results. Yesh. And I am going thailand for about a week in the hols too.

It will require some serious change in attitude to do well in o's, but me is gonna do it. And this is a random comment- i like the band Chinaski, especially the song Hura do Chebu.


Hura do Chebu, tak nekoukej
tady je zapad, zapad je divokej.
A buhvi proc tady ten peloton vedu,
sakra nekoukam, a jedu jedu jedu... jeste.

Its one of the rockiest and most addictive songs i have ever heard and i just love the past of the electric guitar and drums too. yeahh.. Or the second song about a happy tourist! lol.

All this talking is to just pass the time, now i will be getting back my report book and everyone is going to freak out. That's something to look forward to i guess.

I have not blogged for too long and many many things have happened in these few days. Some might call it blogging addiction, but so far i am still able to manage..heh. Blogging is like, funn. *chuckle* Me is in my beloved Cedar computer lab and i have just finished my art lesson and painted most of the tail of the dragon.
Ms Jou gave me a shock when she told me that i will have to add some more layers.. then she looked at my face and said that i was doing fine so far.
I think Ms Jou is very nice contrary to what others say.. in fact i seem to like the teachers in school which not so many people like. It started with Mrs Noeline Lee in sec 2 during entreprise challenge and she was the first and i think the last teacher who wanted to pull me to church (i was not christian at that time). Haha. She's nice la.

But let me say the most AMAZING thing! whee! Churchwide prayer meeting!! Last friday i think.. I have to admit that i did not go into the audi expecting a lot to happen, but that is exactly what happened!A lot of things.XDD Wow. The atmosphere in that place was awesome and really anointed. I am sure that God spoke to a lot of people.. and he spoke to me too, or more of gave me pictures in my mind. (i wrote it all down later on a piece of paper).
And the MOST UNBELIEVABLE thing is that i came out feeling that something was different and all the bad emotions i had been fighting were totally gone, i could feel God's power blowing the wall inside my heart away. The wall which had prevented me from rising up and doing so many things. It was like a great white shimmering wave rolling through the congregation and it hit me with an enourmous burst and the wall just collapsed! WOWW~~
And there was also a soft furry pillow with purple hearts all over it.. Ahhh.. XDDD

In other words the prayer meeting was an IGNITED MOMENT!! woohoo.

God's love is amazing. When i was most down, He let me know that He loves me, in a magnificent way! Could feel something definitely shifted in another direction. And i feel so much FREER now!

PRAISE THE LORD!

Hurhur i got back my mid year results recently and sufficient to say, it's not good and not at all up to my expectations. Wahh my maths and chemistry is horrible.. i let some ppl down. but i promise to study harder and improve a lot so that i can glorify God.. yeahh. Gonna whack and punch the maths until it obeys me XD!
Woo yesterday was so awesome ahh! Having QT with Joanne in church. Have to say that Joanne is really amazing and the presence of God just comes whenever i worship together with herXDD woohoo.

And thy eyes shalt be opened!

yeahh. Opened to see all the possibilities which are there and which i can make use of. It has taken me three long months of agony to realise this.. and a lot of money spent on handphone bills and parents chasing me away from msn. hahaha. But God has a way of touching people when they least expect it and need help the most, as i really felt that i needed divine intervention yesterday hahas. ahhh so cooll..

L O V E G O D A N D L O V E O T H E R S!

Me wants to rise up and me is going to rise up! Me loves and trusts God. XDD.
JESUS REIGNS!

I woke up today to the cheerful chirping of the lil birdies outside.. opened my lil eyes sleepily.. and saw the ceiling of my room. And thats the start to my day! hehes. I am bored somewhat as exams are over, but at least i am going east coast later to rollerblade! sounds like fun ehh..

I desperately need more monehh! wahhh it seems to be eluding me, the lil naughty thing. And it runs away from me all the time.. ahh noo.. come back! If u dont come back i will catch u and u will not want to know what happens next.
So here i am sitting in front of the lil idiot box and not resting my eyes.. thats bad.. Sunny weather outside and there is someone mowing the grass downstairs, ah what a pleasant sound to hear the grass being mowed! Makes moi sleepy.

Had a dream yesterday night, dreamt that i was going from the mrt station with my friend and she wanted to tell me something, but kept postponing it so that when she finally started to say it, i woke up! Wahh this is annoying. hehe.
Wishing everyone a happy lunch hour.

Lalala i am going to do my art prep today for my exam tomorrow.. Infiltrate! yeps. All the best to those ppl doing exams today, i am praying for y'all!! XD Tis a great feeling to know that in a few more days we will all be free and able to go out and enjoy life. Totally fun. yea.

True but a little contradictory..

Feel like i am going around in circles, like a hamster running in tat running wheel.. not moving forward. Just checked some posts on my old blog posted last year. It seems tat i was so much happier back then when ppl said i was so bubbly and lively. oh no, wats happening? Not again pleeaasee God.. Seems to have so many conflicting feelings, moodswings etc. Feels like being an ostrich with my head stuck in the sand, wanting everything to go away as i have not found the substance to face it yet. grrr. It's not tat i dun want to face it, i do, but fraid that my abilities are not good enough (uh huh), anyone can see that, it's quite obvious.

Facing my character and my half formed abilities, venting my anger and insecurity on others and leadership meetings.
Feeling abandoned by my friends.

It's just like this strangling fear.. nonono.. go away.. IN THE NAME OF JESUS!

Well. I can pray and all but it dont seem to fix anything. Guess i will just get lost in my art for a while, for the whole day perhaps (gotta finish it).

I want to be secure in myself and God, confident, cheerful, outgoing, lively, communicative, funny, a blessing to others, helpful, servant-hearted, bold, thick-skinned, loving, forgiving, generous.
Know that others can only help me this far, so i have to do the rest by myself and finally stop complaining. The problem is that whatever i do during the situation seems to turn out wrong, and when i ponder over it there seems like a million ways i could have done better. They seem like the logical things any leader would do. Am i just so small that i cannot do them?

Art, here i come. And may i do it well.

And life is road i wanna keep going,
love is a river i wanna keep flowing,
Life is a road now, and forever wonderful journey.

I'll be there when the world stops turning.
I'll be there when the storm is through,
In the end i wanna be standing at the beginning with you!


Studying for exams is a job for a person with great perseverance, one who does not slack and lose focus and do other things like blogging for example. yea well.
Studying for tomorrow's emaths and biology exam,.. or i am GOING to study! XD It's so gladdening that the majority of the papers is already behind me, only have three more to go including art. And which is a fun exam! :)

Chemistry was tough, amaths was doable for the smart people and so so for those average ppl like moi, am proud of my english compo! XD, ss and geo was okay. I just so sad that there is no french mid year, then i could count my french marks into L1R5 and that would pull me up.. so now it's between chem and amaths. *sighs*
Love the morning pms! Always study not only for the results but most importantly for God! ^^

WOOWW SO HAPPENING! RED RAIN IS COMING AT THE END OF MAY! AT KALLANG THEATRE!! So exciting.. XDD

Although i have not been to Red Rain concert before, i can sense it's going to be two awesome evenings! Yyayyy! And they are selling tshirts too.. me wants to buy, but have to save up money first. haha. I dun care, i wanna a tshirt, i am gg to save, cut down on the consumption of junk food and sweets (they are not good for me anyway!). And make an informed spending!! ^^

Must say the RedRain webby is breathtaking! kudos to those patient ppl who took the time to make it! whee.. rocks rocks rocks ahh. Love the music! YAYYYYY.

I am excited.

And high from yesterday pastor lia's birthday party! The concert was WOW and i feel amazed at all the various talents displayed and the organisation of the whole thing. amazing.
The concert was sophisticated, cool and funny! Dance, band, video,cool deco, accapella, isabel(XDDDDD), jace & sam, choir, il divo (^^^^^^), royyy! a BIGG birthday cake!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASTOR LIA!! and pastor lia gave me a hug..XD hehe.

"And my God is an awesome God, He reigns in heaven above with wisdom, power and love, my God is an awesome God!"

God is just amazing, how He moves in the service and heals people! Thank you God.. for all that you are and for how you shape my life! :))
Even though recently i have not been all that great, just now was impacted by the blog entry of someone i know, and i realise that God is a god who cares. And people in HoGC care. Hope it's not too tragic to have to see what other ppl feel to feel it myself. But i believe that it's a way to learn from others. And humble myself and put God back into the focus.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

Amen.