A luminous flame is faintly flickering, as it struggles to maintain its brightness. It does not want to die out. But it seems that the brighter it is, the more shadows it casts.

Nevim co se to deje, jestli jsem to ja nebo nekdo jinej. Citim, ze je vsechno nak postaveny na hlavu. Proc se tak citim vuci nekterym kamoskam.. Ci je to vina? Chci aby bylo vsechno dobre, aby to klapalo, aby to bylo jak driv. Vic lasky, min zavisti. Kazdy ma prece naky plusy a minusy. Ja taky. Driv kdyz jsem poprve prisla, bylo tu vic nevinnosti a kamaradstvi, ted mi to prijde, ze je to jenom tak jako. Mozna je to ten muj vnitrni 'Hlas' co mi napovida spatny veci, ktery ani nemusi byt pravda. At jde do haje ten hlas !! Kamaradka 'Tulen' - jak se asi citi? Zapsala si neco to blogu? Ze ji pry dost dobre neznam.. whatever.. no dobre. Ale jak mi 'Lev' rekl, budu se chovat krestansky.

Now i am hoping to finish the book i am reading, and hopefully learn lots of stuff from it. Lots of GOOD stuff. Stuff i can apply. Yesh. haha.

I still have God. And pastor said it's all about good timing. I found that really impactful. So sometimes even a good thing at a bad time can be a bad thing, I hope to learn from that. And someone once told me that i could practice christian behaviour, and answer to ( the people that irritate me) by doing good. That's what Jesus would have done.

Maybe i think too much, but right now i am wondering what are some people thinking and doing, and what they have thought and done today. And how do i fit into it, if at all. Oh well. God knows, and maybe it's none of my business. I shall go and read Psalms. :)